I LOVE YOU.

It's all I know.

And I don't want to know otherwise.

-Me

vindicated at 9:48:00 PM

Shock value: 1,000 jigawatts

I hate it when this happens to me, i turn into a nervous wreck who ends up regretting what he says, thinks or does. The idiot in me takes over and no matter what good intention I have it ALWAYS comes out wrong.

I pissed her off last night....and almost ruined her night this morning. Gah. Go me...

My intentions were nothing but the purest. I care for her, I love watching out for her, I love taking care of her. But shock and fear when combined in my system spell nothing less than disaster. :(

I haven't been this concerned for a significant other in at least a year, (maybe more but i just got tired, bored and numb that i didn't even notice.) Honestly, I'm having a hard time being a boyfriend again. Hard how? Hard when it comes to the fact that my baby is a free spirit and so am I but the thing is I've never dealt with someone as free spirited as her. Now I know how some exes of mine felt when they 'tried' to tame me. As for me it was by choice I slowed down, due to responsibilities and just wanting to calm down a bit.

Taming her though is out of the question. I don't want to (though I usually rub off on her that I do.) I'm concerned, yes. Conservative? To a degree. Jealous? Errr...very. But because I love her i don't want to demand much, only the little things that a significant other usually asks for. However, being the free spirit that she is, even those are a bit too hard to ask for. It's ok, I'll deal with it. Maybe I'll learn more from this, maybe I'll find out to what extent I can adapt.

Anyway, she's been trying extra hard to deal with me. And I love her even more for that. I know I'm a brat. I know I'm stubborn. I know I'm a jealous lover. And she still loves me anyway. It doesn't get any sweeter than that.

Mahal kita. Sobra.

vindicated at 12:54:00 PM

...it's been a rough night.

I'm sorry.
Thank You.
I love you.
I'll strive to be better. For myself. For you. For our future family.

...sleep tight my baby, sleep tight
your baby will watch over you tonight
and if by chance a nightmare comes
baby will be beside you 'til morning's sun
good night my baby, good night
sleep well i'll hold you tight.

vindicated at 11:00:00 AM