i never
-chance

hah.
a phrase i know to well.
a phrase i so often say only to take it back.
gladly this time around the 'i never's that i am taking back are being taken back for a wonderful reason.

i'm in-love.

which brings me to the first 'i never'

-"I never would fall in-love and go head over heels for anyone ever again."
But now, heart thumping wildly, head spinning, hormones goin crazy...I'm madly in-love with Ri

-"I never will be too affectionate nor intimate."
Pffft. i kiss her whenever i want to, i show the world im proud to be in-love with her. So much for that 'i never'.

-"I never will let my guard down for anyone for anything."
October 16, 2008 came and i bore my soul to her. I told her upfront how she can twist and break my heart so easily if she wanted to. So much for saying 'i never' this time.

-"I never will find true happiness on this earth."
Let me just say being with her is heaven on earth and i can't ask for anything more from the world or from God. He has blessed me abundantly with her.

.....nuff said!

vindicated at 2:19:00 AM

the first 24 hours
-chance

tears rolling down my cheeks
minutes feel like weeks
planes crisscross the skies
jet engines drowned by my sighs

time creeps
even my shadow weeps
at every turn a reminder
at every place a marker

pains near unbearable
feelings inconsolable
my heart beats, my heart aches
my heart patiently waits

another tear comes down my cheek
another minutes passes like a week
another beat, my heart awaits
the return of my one true mate

vindicated at 1:19:00 AM

please don't go

mere days are left
i'm going crazy
i knew this was inevitable
but still

i
don't
want
you
to
go

stay with me 1 second longer
1 minute
1 hour
1 day
1 month
1 year
...forever

i want to wake up beside you
i want you to be the first and last person i see every day
i want to spend every possible moment with you

please
don't
go....

vindicated at 5:04:00 AM