Compared, AGAIN.

How I wish every comparison was a good one. Sadly, it isn't, or it brings no good memories to her.
Why do I have a feeling she's putting me in his shadow?
I hate this.
It makes me feel unappreciated for what I really am trying to do.
I'm not like him.
I don't want to be him nor do i try to be him.
I am R**. I love her truly.

Why can't she separate me from him/his memories/his shadow?
Doesn't she have a clue how much that hurts? Doesn't she?!?!?!?!
Doesn't she know how it feels to be seen as someone else? Even worse, someone whom she dislikes and wants to distance herself from?

Do I deserve to be treated this way? I don't think I do...I don't think I do.

I don't think I do.
But foolish as I am, I endure.

I love her too much to walk away. Besides, if I do, I just prove to her that I'm like that bast**d son of a b**ch.

F**k.



...just venting...i hope it's over now and i can calm down....wish bubu's right here.

vindicated at 5:13:00 PM