I'm weak when it comes to dealing with my beloved when she is mad/not in the mood/pms-ing/or just simply "off". I panic, I scream a silent shout that echoes in my own head, I fail to function. It's wrong but I have yet to find a way to adapt.

Mababatukan nanaman ako ng bespren ko pihado.

I'm on the road doing what I do best to cope with this feeling...I drive. Not necesarily fast, I just drive. I've driven 200+ miles so far but I'm about ready to come home, I just need to eat.

I drove to places we have been to, I drove to santa barbara to get coffee and I drove up angeles crest to breathe.

I never thought I would be this crazy over someone, I never thought that having her in semi-silence would drive me nuts.

But thank God I know how to love truly. And truly, I love her.

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vindicated at 7:34:00 PM